During a toast at the rehearsal dinner for Ginger’s wedding, Ginger said that a relationship is like an organism on its own. It grows and changes. That is truth. My friendships have changed a good deal since I graduated. It’s been extremely taxing at times.

I think that my reliance on my friendships might be unhealthy.

Cowboy got a new job at Belmont. It pays great, but his hours are at night, which means when he starts working I won’t see him very much anymore. That means that I’ll be at home by myself a lot more often. I’ve been thinking about moving out on my own for a little while, and this sort of gives me a lot bigger reason. If I’m going to be by myself at home a lot anyway, I might as well start thinking about getting my own place.

Part of me is terrified to get my own place, but I think it might be good for me. Maybe it’s time for me to start leaning on my own self-esteem again a bit instead of relying on my friends so much. It’s been nearly 5 years since I started healing from depression. Maybe the next step in my personal growth can’t happen until I start trusting myself a bit more.

God worked a miracle in my dad. We found out about it last Friday. Pretty amazing. My sister wrote about it here.

I went to the percussions ensemble concert at Belmont last night. It was pretty good. The last song pretty much blew me away. There were drum set solos by Zoro and Derico Watson. Awesome.